.diva.

| Sunday, November 27, 2005 |
|| 11:56 PM

ok. that adidas bag is a new collection. its starting to come out EVERYWHERE. yes. EVERYWHERE. whatever. i am jus hoping no one would get the same bag as me. ok. thats if provided santa is granting my christmas wish.

i hate detest abhor my stomach. i got no idea why it aches at the most unexpected time. didnt fully enjoy todae's services becos of my stupid tummy. but something that really strongly griped my heart is something pst phil mention,

"i am suspicious and i doubt that most of you are ANTICIPATING for the outpouring of the Holy Spirit"

i am certainly guilty of that. very guilty. i have not yet been anticipating. not yet getting prepared for the harvest that is coming.

also, today, my patience has been strongly tested. if anyone of you knows, i have totally ZERO, big fat Z-E-R-O patience for kids. they get on my nerves so so easily. guess what. I TOOK CARE OF FOUR KIDS BY MYSELF FOR TWO HOURS(thanks to jackson). at first, i started off, ok loh. no choice. later as i continue playing with them, yes. at some point, i feel like jus stop entertaining them. jus let them play with themselves. its really tough. have to keep coming up with ideas and games to play with them.but i pushed myself on. becos of one thing, it is for God. i kept telling myself, yes they may be children, but who knows becos of these little actions, when they grow up, they will be great leaders of God. kinda happy abt my achievement. hahahs. who on earth will think TAN YAN BING will be able to do it?? hahhas. my character is changed. i know some attitude inside my has also changed.
as i was playing with the kids, everyone was like looking at me. everyone was like, ohh. nanny. hahahas. so so embarassing can. but its for God. its worth it.

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