.diva.

| Monday, February 28, 2005 |
Os is out! n it is also my cousin's birthday! || 6:26 PM

Os is out todae!!! felt so excited fer all the Os ppl.. hahas.. didnt really see anione hu cried.. i tink this time round.. most of my frens did quite well.. yep.. i wasted another afternoon on gg out.. cos needa "support" my frens when they collect the results.. then after that.. had to have lunch wif them.. i am gg to study 3 hours todae.. real study man.. dun wanna let my maths down.. n my chinese teacher too.. n i am currently suffering frm is a disease: Atopic dermatitis (atopic eczema or just eczema).. it is a name given to a stubborn itchy rash that occurs in certain people with sensitive or irritable skin. Eczema is common in infants and young children, and may disappear before adulthood. Eczema may clear for years, only to reappear later--often on the hands.i got this frm the web.. this prove that i am either still an infant or a young children.. its not a nice thing to have too.. had to apply cream n stuffs.. totally troublesome..

n while i was bathing jus now.. i was tinking abt trust.. n u know what.. i found out sumthing so true.. this is the Definition of trust fer mi.. still believing in sumone even though circumtances doesnt allows to.. OR.. even though all wrongs r being pointed to that sumone, but becos she says that she didnt do ani of the things that ppl say she did n u stand by him or her side helping to fight the "war".. thats the two definition that i feel what trust is all abt.. do u really trust anione in ur life??

terrence yong!! a great happy birthday to you! be dependent on God in everything that u do okay??

=+feeling kind of weird todae.. i got so much to say.. so much to tell.. but i cant.. cos i dun wan to+=

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| Saturday, February 26, 2005 |
sat || 10:51 PM

had tuition in the morning.. slept really early yesterday.. didnt know y too.. suppose to wake up at 7 to do sum maths b4 tuition.. but u know.. didnt make it in the end.. woke up at 9 instead..

sacrifice my tv time to go fer a meeting.. but its really good.. i've said what i long wanted to say.. then went to the gym wif my sis, bro and my bro's fren.. ran abt 1.8 km without stopping.. wasnt really satisfied.. after gym wif to have punggol nasi lemak wif grandma, mum, bro, bro's fren n sis.. ate to my heart content.. i finish the whole plate up as i was really hungry.. didnt have breakfast n lunch.. could u imagine it..

mum wanted to catch a movie(i do i do).. but it was full.. as i tot that my day was gg to end.. mum sis n mi went to a pasar malam at tamp.. bought loads of cheap n nice stuffs.. bought 3 necklaces..a ring.. 2 bookmarks.. and sum other household stuffs.. wanted to buy this winnie the pooh n power puff stickers.. but my mum.. she doesnt allow n i didnt bring ani cash out.. u may be tinking that i am childish.. but i am NOT ok.. i am jus child like at times.. hahas..

haven complete ani of my social studies homework yet.. gg to work late tonight..

did i mention my bro is back.. i feel so sad for him.. thank God he is back.. miss his noise at home

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| Friday, February 25, 2005 |
tml is sat || 5:26 PM

my mouth is so so sugary now.. my whole mouth is so sweet.. i bought this pancake frm the pasar malam that i jus walked thru and saw this pancake thingy.. i tot that it would taste nice.. but.. *vomits* its too too sweet..

went to the library wif joanne.. yes.. L-I-B-R-A-R-Y.. i know i sound nerddy.. but i am not alright.. borrowed 4 books.. hahas.. one of the books is really interesting.. talks abt girls having crushes and stuffs la.. really nice n cute.. mi n jo had buble tea and ice cream b4 our trip to the library.. as usual only two of us.. looks like G^3 club is abt to disband..

tml is sat.. i am so so broke right now.. haven been saving.. worst of all.. i a overspendig.. seriously.. i need an angel to help mi hide my money away frm my eyes.. goodness.. i feel so sad over myself..couldnt believe it..

and u guys know what.. after being back frm the camp.. i got abt 4 PIMPLES on my face now!! i am moaning in sadness and pain.. and one of my pimple actually grew in this funny part of my face.. the part near my right eyelid.. the patch is swollen and make my eyes one bigger then the other!!!!! let mi die alright.. my skin is already in bad condition.. and 4 more pimples jus pop up right after the camp!! my skin is serious;y super ultra sensitive.. i tink i can jus wear a mask everything i go out..

yesterday confrence was great.. talks abt humility.. felt that i miss the mark by so much.. got to change..

this is the end of my story.. thank you

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| Thursday, February 24, 2005 |
sec 3 fun || 11:42 PM

came back frm sec 3 camp yesterday.. wanted to blog yesterday.. but theres so much to tell.. yep.. loads of fun happenings... the camp was rather ok..not really fun or wadever.. but it is the frens that make it happening.. theres sumwhere in the camp where sum really sad things happen. which i will not mention here.. cos.. its sad..

okay.. first day went fer kayaking.. i partner dawn(my wonder heroine).. we had a hard time carrying the kayaks out.. then after all the teaching-us-how-to-kayak lessons.. we went on board to our kayak n set off.. so we were suppose to go to this part of the sea.. but unfortunately.. everything went wrong.. we drifted away frm the whole grp!! dawn n i was so far frm the rest tat we got afraid that we will die!! seriously.. no matter how hard we try.. nothing works.. so after screaming for 1 min.. the instructor finally came n help us.. goodness.. n we joined the rest n everyone was like.. "dawn n yan bing.. u both jus went to indonesia huh??" goodness. it was so so malu la.. hahas.. but it was rather fun.. after the first attempt.. theres was a second.. we were suppose to follow the teacher.. but everything went wrong AGAIN!! becos of KEITH!! yes.. he bang into us n make the kayak turn towards the wrong direction!! but without the help of the teacher.. dawn n me manage to recover.. hahas.. then at the thrid last time.. where we were suppose to return to shore.. dawn n mi drifted AGAIN!! hahas.. this time round.. the instructor has to help us.. as no matter how we paddle.. we jus kept moving forward.. into the really deep sea.. so when the instructor saw us he was like.. "r u the one that i helped jus now?" goodness.. i was like "YES!!!!!".. i tink kayaking is jus not my type.. i need a personal instructor if i ever want to learn.. hahas.. thats one part exciting.. theres alot more.. but.. i needa do my stuffs now.. so i shall update the next time.. or if u wan to.. go to dawn's blog.. she had updated it.. yep..

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| Sunday, February 20, 2005 |
excited || 11:40 PM

tml is my sec 3 camp.. i dun really know y am i so happy n excited abt it.. maybe becos i can get to DISTURB DAWN!!! muhahahha..yup.. i am suppose to get loads of sleep now.. cos i didnt get to sleep for the past 2 days which i am suppose to be doin..and tell u what.. my class haven even got the cheer prepared or the drama practice.. hahas.. but i plan to go there n jus make a fool out of ourselves.. hahas.. serious.. for drama no one will see mi on stage.. cos i requested for "backstage" crew..hahas.. i know it sounds weird.. but.. i dun know how to act.. yup..

had done loads of tinking todae.. to me is alot.. n i saw this show at night on channel 8.. the show is so so not nice.. but my grandma doesnt have scv at her hse.. aniwae.. yar.. theres a quotation by the actor..

"the sweeter the words, the greater the hurt"

i know its not totally true.. but when u get hurt.. it is true.. totally tired todae.. i tink i better go to sleep soon.. hahas.. thats all! pray for mi k guys.. cos i am really afraid of heights..

the font is big for this post as theres sumone hu said that my words r too small to be read.. u shld know hu u r.. hahas

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| Saturday, February 19, 2005 |
tired*yawns* || 11:28 PM

i am so so tired.. talked on the phone till late night yesterday.. slept at 330am.. woke up at 9am todae morning.. goodness.. how tiring man.. slept for onli 6 hours.. and the whether is so hot..

started tuition todae.. the teacher is so young.. i was actually expecting a old auntie wif glasses type.. but she turn out to be so young.. shes a really nice lady.. studying at NTU now.. okay.. y am i typing her profile here.. ok.. i am tired.. aniwae.. the best thing is.. she lives jus the next block of my house.. it is totally cool! hahas.. fancy having a tutor staying so near to me..

needa to bathe now.. and also.. gg to have my camp on mon!! i am kind of excited over it.. i tink i am weird to have those feelings..

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gone || 12:08 AM

had an awesome cg jus now.. totally great.. the msg jus preach mi to so so much.. yar.. i was feeling kind of condemn if u guys didnt know.. i was so condemn over prayer meeting after wat had happened last week at prayer meeting.. till in the afternoon.. i still wasnt feeling good.. my cg member wanna mi lead again for this week's prayer meeting.. but i felt so terrible.. so i rejected it.. he didnt understand y.. cos i doubt he will ever understand.. i mean.. yar.. i tink onli joanne,dawn and kelly will understand.. these three girls are my problem teller.. thanks so much girls! if i wasnt for u three.. i tink i would have died long ago.. hahas.. okay.. back to topic.. and the msg during cg was abt not giving up.. i was telling my another member i feel like backsliding frm prayer meeting.. i felt no more confidence in me.. but really thank God.. he knew i need this msg so much.. the msg was abt endurance.. that endurance cant be stretch.. and y i would go thru things like this cos God must be testing my endurance.. i felt better after cg..

went out todae wif joanne.. to taka.. she wanted to buy sumthing which i cant type it here.. cos.. u know.. hahas.. but in the end.. we got things that we dun really need for the time being.. hahas.. she bought loads of stuffs.. shorts, a small boxer gloves keychain for her fren bdae, one more thing and a shoe bag.. hahas.. she went to taka becos she wanted to buy trackpants and stuffs for camp.. but.. hahas.. i onli bought a shoe bag.. she bought the same one.. hahas.. she copied mi.. hahas.. but it is really nice.. the first time i ever buy a shoe bag.. then i turn up late for prayer meeting.. felt really bad..

and aniwae.. i've jus remembered.. this morning was totally horrible... totally.. nothing is sweet abt this morning.. i cant believe it.. it got to do wif my mum again alright.. i dun wish to type it here.. its a long story.. and aniwae.. my mum got this raphl lauren(i dun know how to spell it) perfume.. wow!! it is super nice.. seriously.. goodness sweet.. my sis has a chanel no.5 perfume.. she got that long long ago.. jus remembered abt that.. tat smell nice too.. hahas..

needa call tat kwek now.. dun know what is he up to.. i tink its becos of what i've said in my previous blog.. i wont feel guilty, regretful or whatever.. cos thats my true feelings.. so sorry wif i had offended u guys in one way or another.. but i dun wanna be an hypocrite.. i am jus saying what i really feel.. y dun u guys put urself into my shoes.. u will know what it means that.. *no offence*

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| Wednesday, February 16, 2005 |
statisfied || 4:18 PM

i am blogging real early todae.. as i wont to on the com for tonight.. got a chinese test tml.. jus sent my phone for repair.. yar.. this is the second time..the first time i went was jus in DEC.. abt two months ago?? i tink i must consider getting a new phone.. cos that phone my mine is really badly tortured by mi.. the cover kind of crack.. the vibration is spoiled.. keypad insensitive.. yar.. but good phones are so so expensive.. my mum wouldnt get it for mi.. cos i onli bought my phone one year ago.. and i haven torture it till a state of total destruction...

todae i felt really happy at first.. but then.. later on.. becos of my slipped of tongue.. i felt really happy n satisfied becos i helped this two girls frm my PE class.. i dun really know them.. but while we r playing game.. they both always stand at a side.. so i went over n began to encourage them to play.. now i know.. y they always stand at a corner while ppl r playing becos they felt that their grp members despise them.. but i encourage them todae.. although they r my opposition team.. i direct them teach him n let them find confidence when the ball is being pass to them.. i felt really good all within after PE lesson.. but during recess.. or shld i say after recess as bell had rang.. i saw my fren zarra,clare and jinglong.. jinglong was carrying the class tee for the both of them.. zarra was holding one of it in her hands.. i didnt know she was sad over it.. and she actually cried as the colour wasnt really nice n the words are too small.. i went over and jus giving my comments.. how cum ur class teeshirt the colour is like shit.. i seriously didnt know zarra was sad over it.. so jo was beside mi.. she gave mi that eye and i knew i said sumthing really awful.. ohh man.. i felt so bad then.. i felt like taking back my words.. seriously.. i didnt mean it.. i was.. yar.. so during the whole of bio lesson.. i was feeling ohh so guilty.. so i quickly wrote a card saying sorry during maths period and pass it to her after school.. how dumb i was to say that man.. and aniwae.. ate this paparoti which i bought frm this stall at tampines.. the bread was sweet.. really sweet.. and i tink it would taste better wif the coffee that they sell.. i didnt buy the drink as it was my first time trying that paparoti thingy.. i shall go there again to get both drinks n the bread.. and its real cheap too..

and also.. i am gg to have tuition.. yep.. private tuition at my hse on sat.. kind of excited.. wonder how the teacher look like.. a tigeress or a nice lady.. hahas.. God bless mi

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| Tuesday, February 15, 2005 |
tuesday.. 15022005 || 10:54 PM

todae is tat kwek's bdae.. went down all the way to orchard to celebrate it for him.. yar.. n we onli met up at like 640.. so late.. so reached home really late tonight.. at 10.. i hate the feeling of reaching home late WIF MY SCHOOL UNIFORM.. i was like walking on the streets and ppl was like staring at mi giving mi that wat-are-u-doin-here-school-girl-u-must-be-some-ah-lian look.. which i totally hates it! yes.. {my mum is nagging mi again!!!} aniwae.. yar.. n todae i found out theres actually a library at orchard.. the atmosphere there is really nice.. and aniwae.. i am feeling quite down now.. yar.. becos of sumthing sumone said.. which really jus hurt mi so much which i of course didnt show it out or tell anione.. i mean.. didnt wan everyone to feel that.. whats wif u.. sudden moodswing.. and i found out.. i dun really have ani frens that i can share wif n no one really understands mi.. i feel so upset jus tinking over this.. yar.. forget it alright..

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| Monday, February 14, 2005 |
monday. {valentine's day} || 10:21 PM

didnt start my day really well.. yup.. woke up late for school.. so my mum fetched mi to school and thank God i wasnt late.. manage to slip into the school building one minute b4 bell rings.. yup.. todae had total defence day too.. that means.. NO FOOD IN THE CANTEEN!!! food ration cards were given out.. yar.. and the food they gave us was.. i have to say.. yucky.. it was the food that ppl had during world war 2.. now i feel so bad whenever i throw my food away.. hahas.. got in total 5 thingys frm my frens as valentine's day gift.. i feel so bad.. i didnt even do anithing for anione.. hahas.. aniwae.. after school.. went out wif joanne n liyan.. we rushed our way to town to catch this movie.. shall we dance.. the show was really nice.. it was kind of tear jerking.. but my tears didnt roll out.. hahas.. after movie.. went to get zarra's bdae present and take neos.. i dun know y.. after movie.. i felt really moodless.. kind of bored.. i cant believe valentine's day is the most boring day in my life.. yar.. guess it must be the monday's blues hormones rising in my body.. but nonetheless.. saw loads of frens on the street.. i was like saying hi almost every 20 mins.. i even met this pri 3 classmate.. he changed so much that i cant recognize him.. he walked past mi n said my name in this very low tone.. yan bing.. i was so shocked.. i stared at him.. onli after 30 seconds did i realise it was james.. hahas.. i was so so shocked.. seriously.. yup.. thats abt it..

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| Sunday, February 13, 2005 |
wasted. || 12:18 AM

todae is such an unfruitful day.. feels like i jus wasted one day of my life.. yes.. i jus wasted it.. in the morning.. i purposely woke up at 9.. for the sake of studying.. as i wouldnt be free in the afternoon.. theres a show i wanna catch on tv.. hahas.. it is a really nice show.. lavender.. {my mum is like nagging at mi now.. cant even stand her... pls la.. jus show all ur love to bro and dun care abt mi..i wonder how i even stand her for the past 14 years of my life} okay.. back to my day.. i cant let my mum spoil my mood.. yar.. waking at 9 was so tough.. my sis actually came into my room n kick mi.. a nice way to start my day huh.. getting kick.. so aniwae.. had this NOT-so-delicious-yet-added-wif-abalone(is this the way i spell it?? i dun know) breakfast.. my mum cooked it.. i dun really like her being at home on sat.. i prefer her out.. and after breakfast.. my mum pulled mi to the doctor to check on my skin AGAIN.. i have been to all sorts of doctors for my skin.. i have like 6 bottles of thingy for mi to apply on my skin now.. and i dun even know whether can cream A and be applied wif cream B.. i am in high danger.. all thanks to my mum.. and then came home.. rest for awhile and i am jus in time to catch my show.. after it.. study, sleep.. slept till 6.. did another round of quick study.. to ease my guilt of not studying for the whole day.. and went out at 710.. to join my cell group for their so called "fellowship".. yar.. its was a total waste of my money and time down there.. {no offence to ani cg member alright.. i am jus stating how i really feel} i was the onli girl there and the guys in the cg onli played and talked among themselves.. except for octopus of course.. he kept standing beside mi trying to make mi feel happier.. but it was of no use.. i went home super early.. at 945.. i couldnt take it boredness animore! seriously.. whats the point of gg down.. if theres sumthing like this next time.. i would jus absent myself frm it.. i dun care if my cg is unhappy wif mi.. i mean.. i rather let them feel unhappy wif mi then to waste my time down there..okay.. thats abt it.. told u it is a total wasted day..

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| Saturday, February 12, 2005 |
|| 3:41 PM

the weather todae is jus so so H.O.T!!! i hate it.. i was suffering like mad.. esp in class!! i was so sleepy.. i fell asleep for almost every lesson.. kinda nice.. and todae.. i nearly got killed.. yep.. its all that bus uncle's fault.. he close the door without knowing that i was still alighting.. ohh gosh.. i was like.. standing in the middle of the door ready to be flatten.. but of course.. i came down alright.. if not.. i wouldnt be here..

and seriously.. my sore throat isnt getting ani better.. it got worst.. maybe on the account of dawn pineapple tarts and the timeout i took jus now.. hahas.. but all those were really yummy.. esp that pineapple tart.. i've been advertising for dawn for like the whole of CNY.. hahas.. cos i really love all the goody food.. and the red packets of course.. this time round.. i would be SAVING a hundred buck and i shall deposit it into THE BANK.. (in case of temptation) those hu know mi well.. shld know that this is really a HUGE MEGA BIG deal for mi..tats abt it.. i am getting into the room.. it is really hot here..

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| Thursday, February 10, 2005 |
second day of CNY.. went TOTALLY WRONG || 6:14 PM

todae isnt a really nice day.. i am so damn fed up wif my mum in the morning.. listening to her voice can make mi go bonkers anytime.. seriously.. anytime.. she is so so biased.. cos actually my family went to have brunch wif my grandma except my dad(he wasnt in s'pore) and my brother(hu went to his fren's hse early in the morning).. actually our plan is go n have this congee at this restuarant.. but it wasnt open.. so my mum suggested shangri-la.. a hotel that caters super duper nice dim sium.. cos yesterday night.. my bro wanted to have breakfast there.. and i also wan too.. so my mum wanted to take us there this morning.. but my brother wasnt ard wif us.. so later my mum purposely didnt wan to go there(although she suggested it in the first place) i was so angry wif her.. i mean.. jus becos bro isnt ard we still can go there right.. so she kept on gg ard the whole of s'pore looking for a place to eat but jus NOT shangri-la.. the second place we went to this is parkroyal hotel if i nv remember wrongly.. but the place was fully book.. i was super hungry then and wif the biased attitude my mum has.. i was extremely angry!! but the worst has yet to cum.. my mum actually settled down at this coffeeshop!! which has NO AIRCON!! and u know how HOT the weather is!! i tink it was 100degrees.. so i was so on fire!!! i feel like shouting at my mum.. but i jus grumble within my heart so as not to spoil anyone's mood.. the food at the coffeeshop is quite nice.. but u know what.. it took SUCH A LONG TIME TO ARRIVE!!! see.. my day went totally wrong..

anyway.. didnt mention anything abt the first day of CNY.. i was in malaysia basically.. then jus visit my malaysia relatives.. n i was so touched by my cousin's wife.. they jus got married not long ago.. so my family went over to his house.. his wife is really a nice lady.. so there was this ice cream man hu was on his ice cream bike.. she actually ask whether do i wan ani ice cream.. as i was hu hao yi shi.. i said no.. but my sis knew i wan it.. so she was like.. aiya.. jus say so if u wan la.. so upon hearing that.. i meant my cousin's wife.. she quickly got sum money n went after the ice cream man.. the uncle was suppose to stop.. but it didnt.. so u know what.. she ran after the ice cream for mi! she really ran the whole street jus for my ice cream.. and the weather was so hot over there.. i was feeling so guilty and bad when she came back wif the ice cream... what a nice lady isnt it.. if i was her.. i would jus tell the guest.. sorry.. i couldnt get it.. ohh man.. she is jus such a sweet lady..

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i need ur prayer || 6:18 AM

and aniwae.. i am having a bad sore throat.. do keep mi in ur prayers.. thanks so much darlings!

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