.diva.

| Monday, September 05, 2005 |
|| 9:48 AM

my mind is really filled with loads of things now. it was suppose to be empty so that i can concentrate on studying this week. but apparently, thoughts are jus running at the speed of light in my mind. thought abt my cell grp. went home with tk yesterday, he was talking abt the cg and come probs of it and his own stuffs. i was sitting there listening throughout the journey home. when i got home, i was thinking, why is it the burden of the cg is only carried upon the shoulders of tk and yh. arent we a cell grp. i guess partly is becos, members doesnt want to share and leaders doesnt want to disclose so much of it. but if we keep on keeping your life out from one another, soon, accountability towards members and not jus leaders will be not exist. and the cell grp wont be a real cell grp anymore. i msged tk a thanks msg after that cos he sacrifice his show for me and make me feel real bad, he was like showing his nice side of his which makes me feel so odd when he replied the msg. i told him that i feel funny becos i cant imagine that this guy i am msging too is also the guy that i was slapping jus now. hahahs. so he replied, one of the sentence of the long msg is, maybe you dont really know who i am. i didnt reply that msg as i was too tired, but i read it. i wanted to msg back, you say i dont know who are you, then i would like to ask a question, who are you? why not you be the one who tell me. not many people know you, as in really knowing you, is not becos they do not want to, but it is you who do not want to be open with them.

i am feeling like the song that corrine may sang, save me in this crazy world. yes. save me. my super man, save me. i saw machottie yesterday. yes yes. he is jus so totally hot and cute. saw him many many times. during service, after sevice. maybe it is to make up for me missing him last sun. hahahs. kidding. but machottie. is jus so....... ohh man. kelly think that way too. whoo hoo.

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