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Friday, March 04, 2005
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with tears || 9:17 AM
got a nervous breakdown yesterday.. seriously.. i really broke down.. thats y i didnt turn up fer school todae..no one understands how i feel at all.. now i know how pathetic this world is.. no one is there is encourge me at all.. all everyone knows is to nag at me wif their they-thought-is-encourging-tone voice.. the type of voices i hear is not encourging at all.. all i feel is that ppl a jus trying to nag at me.. i will not mention names here for now.. all i can see in their whole chuck of words are that they r jus contradicting themselves frm time to time.. at first.. ask me to have faith, then at the later part.. wat they suggested was another option out of faith.. i dun know what they r trying to do.. i tink they r jus making my situation worst here.. i feel so much like dying yesterday.. i idea of jus jumping out of my window is so so real.. this life.. i dun tink can hold on ani longer if i do not have an angel here.. God, where r u?? my mind was spinning like mad.. my head ache like it had nv ached b4.. it is an internal headache.. i have such hard time.. do u really understand?
to joanne: thanks so much fer trying to call me when is was already kinda late.. sorry i couldnt pick up the phone as my sis was talking to me.. thanks so much..
to my sis: thanks fer at least trying to help me
to my mum:thanks fer encourging me this morning to go to school.. but i cant do it fer todae.. n thanks fer praying fer me
to my second sis:thanks fer trying to help me.. although it didnt help much.. at least you showed ur love
to tat kwek: i really dun feel like thanking you.. as ur msg pull me down even further but i'll jus do it.. thank you
to my bro: i dun know y when i was crying, i was tinking of you.. at that point of time. i feel you can comfort me.. but u wasnt ard..
to God: i know u r there trying to help me.. but i jus cant work it out.. thank you so much fer ur love and also fer all the ppl u had put into my life that love me..
with tears || 9:17 AM
got a nervous breakdown yesterday.. seriously.. i really broke down.. thats y i didnt turn up fer school todae..no one understands how i feel at all.. now i know how pathetic this world is.. no one is there is encourge me at all.. all everyone knows is to nag at me wif their they-thought-is-encourging-tone voice.. the type of voices i hear is not encourging at all.. all i feel is that ppl a jus trying to nag at me.. i will not mention names here for now.. all i can see in their whole chuck of words are that they r jus contradicting themselves frm time to time.. at first.. ask me to have faith, then at the later part.. wat they suggested was another option out of faith.. i dun know what they r trying to do.. i tink they r jus making my situation worst here.. i feel so much like dying yesterday.. i idea of jus jumping out of my window is so so real.. this life.. i dun tink can hold on ani longer if i do not have an angel here.. God, where r u?? my mind was spinning like mad.. my head ache like it had nv ached b4.. it is an internal headache.. i have such hard time.. do u really understand?
to joanne: thanks so much fer trying to call me when is was already kinda late.. sorry i couldnt pick up the phone as my sis was talking to me.. thanks so much..
to my sis: thanks fer at least trying to help me
to my mum:thanks fer encourging me this morning to go to school.. but i cant do it fer todae.. n thanks fer praying fer me
to my second sis:thanks fer trying to help me.. although it didnt help much.. at least you showed ur love
to tat kwek: i really dun feel like thanking you.. as ur msg pull me down even further but i'll jus do it.. thank you
to my bro: i dun know y when i was crying, i was tinking of you.. at that point of time. i feel you can comfort me.. but u wasnt ard..
to God: i know u r there trying to help me.. but i jus cant work it out.. thank you so much fer ur love and also fer all the ppl u had put into my life that love me..
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