.diva.

| Saturday, February 19, 2005 |
gone || 12:08 AM

had an awesome cg jus now.. totally great.. the msg jus preach mi to so so much.. yar.. i was feeling kind of condemn if u guys didnt know.. i was so condemn over prayer meeting after wat had happened last week at prayer meeting.. till in the afternoon.. i still wasnt feeling good.. my cg member wanna mi lead again for this week's prayer meeting.. but i felt so terrible.. so i rejected it.. he didnt understand y.. cos i doubt he will ever understand.. i mean.. yar.. i tink onli joanne,dawn and kelly will understand.. these three girls are my problem teller.. thanks so much girls! if i wasnt for u three.. i tink i would have died long ago.. hahas.. okay.. back to topic.. and the msg during cg was abt not giving up.. i was telling my another member i feel like backsliding frm prayer meeting.. i felt no more confidence in me.. but really thank God.. he knew i need this msg so much.. the msg was abt endurance.. that endurance cant be stretch.. and y i would go thru things like this cos God must be testing my endurance.. i felt better after cg..

went out todae wif joanne.. to taka.. she wanted to buy sumthing which i cant type it here.. cos.. u know.. hahas.. but in the end.. we got things that we dun really need for the time being.. hahas.. she bought loads of stuffs.. shorts, a small boxer gloves keychain for her fren bdae, one more thing and a shoe bag.. hahas.. she went to taka becos she wanted to buy trackpants and stuffs for camp.. but.. hahas.. i onli bought a shoe bag.. she bought the same one.. hahas.. she copied mi.. hahas.. but it is really nice.. the first time i ever buy a shoe bag.. then i turn up late for prayer meeting.. felt really bad..

and aniwae.. i've jus remembered.. this morning was totally horrible... totally.. nothing is sweet abt this morning.. i cant believe it.. it got to do wif my mum again alright.. i dun wish to type it here.. its a long story.. and aniwae.. my mum got this raphl lauren(i dun know how to spell it) perfume.. wow!! it is super nice.. seriously.. goodness sweet.. my sis has a chanel no.5 perfume.. she got that long long ago.. jus remembered abt that.. tat smell nice too.. hahas..

needa call tat kwek now.. dun know what is he up to.. i tink its becos of what i've said in my previous blog.. i wont feel guilty, regretful or whatever.. cos thats my true feelings.. so sorry wif i had offended u guys in one way or another.. but i dun wanna be an hypocrite.. i am jus saying what i really feel.. y dun u guys put urself into my shoes.. u will know what it means that.. *no offence*

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